Free online summit on blogging

Guess what? There’s bloggers out there that make six figures every year–six figures! Could you imagine that? For those who want to blog for a living, they have to figure out how to do that themselves. It’s not easy to learn. Information is scattered everywhere, platforms are constantly changing, and the best tactics are constantly […]

via Do you want to Grow Your Blog? — dharmaholic

Thanks to Dharmaholic who made me aware of this free online summit. I thougth the summit might interestes some of you. But check out the rest of Dharmaholics blog too. Very nice.

Just to not confuse you: I personally have no specific interest in growing this blog because it is the only place I can ‘let go’ and anonymously write. Growing would mean editing I guess and that would make it more difficult to let go. Funny how addiction, an boundary-less intake problem, is being solved with a boundary-less outlet solution. Ideally I would assume it needs to become more balanced. Not there yet. 🙂

I am happy that I quit. The darkness of late has lifted a bit and I am in this ‘inbetween land’ where I feel it is time to do stuff. It is spring. Well, here, not in Australia and New Zeeland. (Hi!! Wishing you a beautiful autumn time, with lots of closures and letting go while we prepare for new beginnings.)

Wishing you a lovely sober day!

xx, Feeling




Free online summit: World Tapping event

Ooh, a bit late but you could get a view of all the vids in the last days of the 10th Annual World Tapping Summit. Register here.


I am happy that I quit. Going through a difficult spot in time. Had some medical exams today. Pretty painful and in places where you would rather not find anybody poking, brought back nasty memories. So I should be taking my own advice and doing some tapping 😉 on nasty memories e.g.

A woman who loves herself would just go to bed. Again and again and again that seems to be a good thing to do. Wishing you a good, bright, sober day.

xx, Feeling

Now running: free online addiction summit


FYI: there is a new free online addiction summit in town. Check it out here:  🙂 (improved link!)

I am happy that I quit. Currently sorting stuff out off-line. Very thankful for those who replied to my former post – but I do not yet have the strength to actually confront that subject again. The good thing is though: even though I do not totally ‘agree’ with the dark voice of the demons inside…. I do feel SO MUCH lighter. This works the same as denial: once denial is ‘undenied’ (is that a word?) the healing can start. 🙂 Currently healing small parts, eating Iodine pills on which I guess I was low, waking up singing again and taking part in a ‘unclutter challenge’ for February: take 1 thing out on Feb 1, 2 things on Feb 2 etc. So cool! 🙂

I am happy that I quit, I am happy that I am on a path to at one point in life be able to call myself sober. (no not drinking, just not comfortable with the amount of socially acceptable but addictive behaviour I have.

Hope the summit brings you something. 🙂

xx, Feeling

Online summit mindfulness & meditation


Soundstrue organizes another (free) online summit on the subject of mindfulness and meditation. Sign up here. Start date is the 22nd of January.

I am happy that I quit drinking. I am currently taking another dive into my now selfdiagnosed sugar addiction. The hangovers are getting more obvious, the low moods, the lack of confidence, the cravings, the lying to myself – it is all there. Again… I was doing great and then life happened and I was not prepared so back to the chocolate – and you will not be surprised to hear that it came in a larger quantity. :-/

So, I am happy that I quit drinking but more in a tired way. Now I need to continue. Not sure where and when. Working on it. On and off.

A woman who loves herself would make more of an effort to love herself I guess. I have been torturing myself over not knowing what direction to take when it comes to working. No clue. Business idea was a good idea, when I was on a pink cloud of not eating sugar. Then I went back and everything became stupid. :-/ Not sure if they are related but it seems so similar. And so she said while taking another sip of the 3rd glass of sugared soft drink.

Last night I dreamed that I was spending time with a neighbour of mine. She drinks at dangerous levels. It was a horrible dream where I knew I did not drink but because of the sugar thing I kept on falling back into that addictive state of mind. Nasty. Very clear. Very nasty vibe of addiction. Strange thing is that I know I currently do not have the stamina to stop – but also: the addiction keeps the stamina from ‘growing’. It actually eats in on me – well, apart from where it makes me fat. 😀

The difference between ‘need’ and ‘desire’ is difficult for me. :-/

Wishing you a nice sober day/evening,

xx, Feeling

Recovery 2.0 – free online conference on recovery


In two days the free online conference on recovery, called ‘Recovery 2.0’ by Tommy Rosen will start again. Sign up here!

For those who are new to recovery: check it out!

For those who are not new to recovery: check it out! 😀

I am happy that I quit.  A woman who loves herself would take better care of herself than I do. :-/ Self-care is still an issue unfortunately.

Wishing you a nice sober evening/day.

xx, Feeling



Free online summit on Self-acceptance / dealing with the inner critic


I ‘spammed’ this in here before but I want to mention that the free online summit on self-acceptance has started today.

Self acceptance leads to less projections and less critical behaviour towards others (hence my interest :-/, much to learn there) so… finally to a better world!

I am making some tea and let’s see what it brings. 🙂

I am happy that I quit. I am going through a very rough patch and it is tough. Life has not been so tough since before I quit drinking – so blègh. I did however realise that I have EVERYTHING in house to ‘fix’ me. To work things out. But my desire to do so leaves me.

At which moment I thought… stuff it all… I’m gonna do it my way. What can I do? I can not change myself now, but I know homeopathy can help me, so lets see where Google takes me. 1 Search and 3 clicks on a website took me to a vid of Mr Vithoulkas who has a vid on a certain homeopathic medicine which starts with “these people are not closed, they miss a layer”. Which are exactly the words I would use to describe myself. Not all of it fits – but I’m gonna go with it anyway.

Visiting the GP this week. Work issues combined with re-visiting memories of my youth have brought me to the edge of what I think I can bear. Let’s see what I got, it is time to work through this. This is exactly the point where I have stopped developing, as in ‘always stopped’. It sort of feels like ‘sink or swim’. :-/ Blègh.

I am happy that I quit. In a sort of obliged way. The thought of drinking has crossed my mind. I’m thinking there is a danger where I go over the top with thinking ‘I don’t want this life anymore’ and then stepping back into ‘ooh, if it is that bad, I might as well drink because that is a better ‘solution’. Trap number 457. Overdo the one feeling as to make it ok to drink because that is less bad. I do not physically feel like drinking, I do not have urges, it is ‘just’ that my mind is setting traps which, if I were to follow them, would lead me to a bad place.

Addiction is a spiritual misunderstanding of life, at first drinking was a survival technique but ha, as with every shortcut, it started to work against me. That wish for a short-cut is still there. I somehow ‘feel entitled’ to because I have this weird, disfunctional, emotionally handicapped personality. Ha. Well, yeah, poor me. 😦 Hello underdog :-). Self-acceptance. Try it in a sentence today! 😀

Hope you are having a nice, sober day!

xx, Feeling

Free online course on Self-acceptance

Dear all,

Sounds True has a free online course on the subject of Self-acceptance, starting the 11th of September 2017.

Check the link for the course here. Find more wonderful stuff, free and paid at their store.

I am happy that I quit drinking. Otherwise I would not have noticed that I am currently doing shit with my life. I am, haha, practicing self-acceptance though. At which I smile like a farmer with a toothache – or so we put it in Dutch.

xx, Feeling

Btw: if any of you may wonder, I am not in any way connected to any of these free online courses / summits / conferences I post.