The future of healing conference is on sex today

Dear all,

The free online conference on health has a the subject of sex today. Thought you might want to know since it is one of the funny things after getting sober. Sign up here.

This is todays programme:

  • 12:00 (EST) – Dr. Sara GottfriedSexuality and The Hormone Reset Diet
  • 12:30 (EST) – Dr. Madeleine CastellanosA Doctor Looks at Sexual Health
  • 1:00 (EST) – Psalm IsadoraPractical Insights into Sexual Transformation
  • 1:30 (EST) – Destin GerekEnding the Battle of the Sexes
  • 2:00 (EST) – Dr. Jen LandaWomen, Hormones and Sex
  • 2:30 (EST) – Veronica MonetA Deeper Dive Into Sexuality and Partnership
  • 3:00 (EST) – Sol SebastianMen, Sex and Power
  • 3:30 (EST) – Jessica DrummondWomen and Pelvic Health
  • 4:00 (EST) – Mantak Chia – The Healing Tao and Sexuality

Hope it brings you something :-).

xx, Feeling

Recovery 2.0 video’s now all online for FREE untill Monday 16th

For those that have missed the Recovery 2.0 video’s in which addiction specialist Tommy Rosen, author of the book ‘Recover 2.0’ (Good!) interviews other specialists and guru’s on their specific fields – they are still available for FREE until Monday.

Enjoy! 🙂

I did not watch all of them but I specifically liked day 1 and Rosy Kuhn from day 6. But I guess everybody has his/her specifics likes. 🙂

I am happy that I quit, woke up to another day today than yesterday. Not so much feeling hung over but in that weird time-space distortion I used to have after drinking (did not drink, just experimented with sugar. Pffff, don’t want to talk about it).

I want: to be healthy and not have diarrhea all day due to my clean eating pattern. Not sure if it is dirt coming out or chronic bowel infection or so that is normally stopped by the tons of muesli that I eat. Don’t know. I’m getting very frustrated over this.

I need: to get my head on right and make decisions. I’ve started a new project and have not set my egg-timer again to check if I am actually doing it. It runs every 5 minutes and even then I notice that I am distracted every 1 out of 4 times it rings. Blegh!

The hippo is laughing so I guess I’ll cut its head of and see who’s laughing then. :-/ And when I leave my frustration out of it and go to a space where I am good and the world is good it says: ‘Yes, this is how it is, this is what you need to learn again: to focus and this is how difficult it is for you and this is how you are doing.’ Pffff, can’t even get my hippo to give me a fake compliment. Ghegheghe… Well, I do not expect a compliment for just wiping my ass either. Sigh.

Working on a new project. It’s good. Not sure if it is going to lead somewhere. Tarot says it leads to Change. Haha. Which is actually EXACTLY what I want to reach but I was hoping for Fortune or so :-D.

Post, on a few things… on life after

From the Recovery 2.0 conference from an interview with Dr. George Munoz – medical anthropologist / shaman.

The shaman will speak to the Western person, the Western persons BRAIN. But the spirit, the heart and the soul don’t need talking to. Energy doesn’t need talking to. It’s the mind. So, we have a paradigm in the West where we have to address the mind which is not, many times, in alignment with the spirit or energy. In fact, that malalignment is part of the disease.


The story does not matter, the work is the work, we all have to get to the work, one way or the other.

Happy with that. 🙂 Tommy Rosen said something like, somebody told him ‘You have this disease of addiction and the remedy is the spiritual work of the 12 steps.’ I disagree there with him. I think it is that we have an affliction that can be called ‘the hole in the soul’ and that we chose an addiction to make it go away. But spiritual work, like karma shit, until you fix it it keeps on coming back. That counts for everybody, no matter what nest you come from or what path you chose. So indeed, the story does not matter, the work is the work, we all have to get to the work, one way or the other. Ooh, by the way, if you were in doubt: choosing addiction to finally get there is NOT the smartest nor the easiest way. 😀

I am happy that I quit. Went to see the store man today, had another beautiful talk with him and his new store man. I am very happy to be rid of this affection, mixing up Friend and Path and Goal. Pffff, I’m too old for that.

I need: to sort out my stuff and find a job.

I want: to hide. And I am thinking of changing my name because I think intention shows in a name and I am by now thinking that my intention ‘feeling my way back into life’ is keeping me feeling my way back. Like putting all the energy in the journey. I need to be arriving somewhere too. That does not seem included. Or, possibly: I don’t see it because it has never been included in my life…

I take: very little, went to see the wise women yesterday. She used to teach in Schuessler salts amongst others and she gave me her study material :-). I think I want to go back to teaching, I have been reading several Tarot cards on my abilities and teaching comes back and back and… you guessed it, it comes back. The most important thing is, and that has never happened before: I am starting to feel content with that. Ever since I was 6 years old I played ‘school’. Yes! that was horrible for my brother! And he did not participate anymore after 2 times. No bargening like ‘I’ll play war with you and the Playmobil and the Lego if you play school with me?’ would ever get him there. So I kidnapped the neighbours kid, he was 3 or 4. He had to sit and listen and do calculations. He wasn’t very good at it. :-D. Well, I guess I will need to change that last part of the concept. Kidnapping is not very marketable I would say, but… I am finding peace in this and that is good. This Sema ceremony of whirling dervishes sprang to mind. More info.

And if I were to change directions slowly in the coming years to the subject of nutrition and teaching I would be doing….. exactly what my mother used to do.  That is strange. Need to look into that because it feels funny. Like I am not doing what I should be doing because she did it. Whatever, not now. Now I need to do other stuff.

I am happy that I quit. I Hope you are happy that you quit too. 🙂

Recovery 2.0 FREE online conference

Hi! I’m out! I’m watching the free online Recovery 2.0 conference. Loads of vids in the coming 10 days of people who know their shit. As a stingy Dutch person I will stress the point that says FREE. 😉

Login and enjoy! The vids are free for the day that they are posted. Pay 97 Dollars and you can have them long time, forward them to others, receive the transcripts and the audio. Which is actually about the same amount as anybody pays for seeing a shrink for an hour so….. GOOD DEAL.

Enjoy 🙂

I am happy that I quit. Happy that you quit :-). Going through a rough patch currently when it comes to work what and how. I’ve started a new project that is supposed to get me moving. Many thanks to Dustin who caught me saying some stuff and made me consider what I was doing. Shitloads of crying going on today but that is good.

I want: things to be easier.

I need: to take my time and not hide in Netflix and blogs and what have I.

I take: Schuessler salts on bile production.