Prepping for my new job

I am VERY HAPPY that I quit because otherwise I would not be sitting here being excited about my new job which starts tomorrow. Currently preparing, working through some YouTube movies on basics of the new operating systems I’m going to have to work with and some new user applications. So again, very happy that I quit. I thank my former self of 6 months and 28 or 29 days ago for quitting!

I want: to do 10.001 things and still have time to do another 10.001 today. Good that I say that because that will not work and I need to make sure that I do things that do work otherwise I feel bad. So… shorten the to do list.

In need: to go out and buy some new clothes. Brrrr…… Maybe if I change how I feel about it, it will not be that bad? Hmmm…

I take: Bach remedies that help me focus and sleep well and again all the 12 Schuessler salts. I am actually still sugar ‘free’ apart from the Schuessler pills which are made from milk sugar.

I fear: I fear that my bank account is almost empty and when I buy new clothes it will say ‘no money’. In the Netherlands people hardly use credit cards because we know that is only making the problem worse. I guess I can check this before I go and get some savings. Hmmm… This probably looks VERY simple to you but for me it is a nightmare to even check. It confronts me with all the things I failed at. So maybe I should come to terms with the things I failed at. Go where the fear is, this is where the learning opportunities are. Hmmm…. that is hmmm pronounced as ‘Aaaargh!!!’

I am hoping you are having a lovely time enjoying your sobriety or soberly working through issues and enjoying the fact that you are now doing that instead of drinking. In any case I wish you a nice time. I am happy that you freed yourself of the chains of addiction. 🙂

xx, Feeling