Prepping for my new job

I am VERY HAPPY that I quit because otherwise I would not be sitting here being excited about my new job which starts tomorrow. Currently preparing, working through some YouTube movies on basics of the new operating systems I’m going to have to work with and some new user applications. So again, very happy that I quit. I thank my former self of 6 months and 28 or 29 days ago for quitting!

I want: to do 10.001 things and still have time to do another 10.001 today. Good that I say that because that will not work and I need to make sure that I do things that do work otherwise I feel bad. So… shorten the to do list.

In need: to go out and buy some new clothes. Brrrr…… Maybe if I change how I feel about it, it will not be that bad? Hmmm…

I take: Bach remedies that help me focus and sleep well and again all the 12 Schuessler salts. I am actually still sugar ‘free’ apart from the Schuessler pills which are made from milk sugar.

I fear: I fear that my bank account is almost empty and when I buy new clothes it will say ‘no money’. In the Netherlands people hardly use credit cards because we know that is only making the problem worse. I guess I can check this before I go and get some savings. Hmmm… This probably looks VERY simple to you but for me it is a nightmare to even check. It confronts me with all the things I failed at. So maybe I should come to terms with the things I failed at. Go where the fear is, this is where the learning opportunities are. Hmmm…. that is hmmm pronounced as ‘Aaaargh!!!’

I am hoping you are having a lovely time enjoying your sobriety or soberly working through issues and enjoying the fact that you are now doing that instead of drinking. In any case I wish you a nice time. I am happy that you freed yourself of the chains of addiction. ๐Ÿ™‚

xx, Feeling

14 thoughts on “Prepping for my new job

  1. Yes! How exciting. I thank your former 7-month ago self too. โค I hope your bank account says, yes, go ahead, you can afford to buy yourself something new to wear. And if it doesn't say that, I hope you can simply feel confident wearing whatever you already have. ๐Ÿ™‚

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    • My bank account said ‘yes’ and I actually have been wearing 2 the same t-shirts for 2 years now on a jeans which have alternated when the wore out. The shirts have holes in them. I have 1 dress I can wear so…… I bought 1 of the same brand t-shirt, same model, same colour. Silly, yeah. Happy? YEAH!! ๐Ÿ™‚
      My former 7 months ago self thanks you for your comment of course for her wise decision to become sober. ๐Ÿ™‚
      xx, Feeling

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  2. Feeling, I hope you can get a new outfit!
    But now you will have the confidence you have built up over the last 7 months to charge into the new job and blow them away!
    I am wishing you all sorts of new adventures and fun!

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    • Thank you Wendy! I wish (safe) adventures for me too! Blowing away might overdo it a little but I’ll go for ‘impress them mightily’ :-). Or maybe, find a very normal middle road and just do my work well. Not fear failure, not hope for impressing mightily. Weยดll see. It is exciting!
      xx, Feeling

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