I just found this photo on Facebook. It’s marvellous. I keep on walking this path where I want stuff but don’t do it, don’t go for it because I don’t really believe I can. So a quotosophical message for the Saturday evening.
I found the below one last week, can’t imagine how it has escaped me for so long. It actually did give me the last push to quit the chocolate. I believe I’m 5 days sugar-free now and my head feels clearer, fog is lifting. Good 🙂 And because the fog is lifting I feel obliged to continue to not use sugar because I need to be responsible in my new job. Let’s see how I fare with that. By now I need to make sure that I do not repeat the disaster night from months earlier where I was sugar free for long and then ate loads. I will not repeat that but I still can not make promises on changes in behaviour. Does anybody have any thoughts on that?
I’m happy that I quit. Proud of it too.
I want: to sleep and work out what my calling is in life, still afloat.
I need: to sleep and work out what my calling is in life because not working that out seems to stand between me and a whole lot of things which need to be done. I just don’t want to fail at a project again I guess. Can’t compare doing a project sober to doing it on booze but still. Negativity keeping me from doing what I want. Still. Maybe I should add that one: what is keeping me from doing what I want. See what happens.
What is keeping from doing what I want:
Project 30 days: fear of being found out, fear of not being taken seriously by the business partners I would like to speak with.
Project balance: fear that I will not succeed, fear that I will be found stupid and preposterous.
Project health: dunno, hmmm, that’s funny, nothing apparently holds me back but I still don’t do it.
Cleaning and deep cleaning: dunno, feelings of dislike, dislike of cleaning and dislike of me not liking cleaning. I DO like it, when I’ve started. Aah, another one pops up:
This is very, very, very informative. Funny that I can have so many fears which determine my life without really realising them. The names of the projects have meaning to me but I don’t really want to get into spelling them out. Hmmm, bedtime.
And while I’m at it, here’s some tough quoteism from the net as well. Still, I want to get there when it comes to filling in my life.
Yes. Tomorrow I start 1 project. Ghegheghe, alarm bells going off in my head. That’s interesting. Let’s see. Bedtime now. One of these Schuesller cell salts is on getting a normal sleep rhythm so I start thinking of bed whenever the sun goes down and starting of getting up when it comes up. NEW! 🙂 But good because I (think I am) a very early morning person and I have been denying my body that for most of my life.
I take: I did not take anything today because I could not be bothered opening all those 12 pots.
Have a nice evening, night, morning, day!